I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Mum……I was just a pup when we first met, I loved you from the start, you picked me up and took me home and placed me in your heart.
Good times we had together, we shared all life could throw, but years passed all too quickly, my time has come to go.
I know how much you miss me, I know your heart is sore, I see the tears that fall when I’m not waiting at the door.
You always did your best for me. Your love was plain to see, for even though it broke your heart you set my spirit free.
So please be brave without me, one day we’ll meet once more for when you’re called to heaven I’ll be waiting at the door.
That’s so beautiful Jane
Thank you for sharing your heart with me and so many others. I am sorry for your loss. 🥹❤️
I am so so sorry for your loss. I lost my cat Scouser in September after 17 years. I know it feels like you’ll never stop crying right now, but you will, and you will always have Dozer’ memories in your heart.
The deeper the love, the harder the grief. The love obviously went both ways. He’ll always be with you in your heart. Be grateful for that and in time, don’t be afraid to save another rescue, he would want that! Hugs, Been there, done that! Kathleen
so so sad – fly like an eagle Dozer.
all my heart goes out to you
There’s no words that can convey the depth of the hearts ache when you have to say goodbye to a loved one but oh the joy of the love you’ve shared!
I’m so very sorry for your loss, Nagi.
We may only have them for part of our lives, but they have us for all of theirs. That’s worth everything to them. To be there with them when it’s time to go is your last gift to them.
So much love to you xxxx
Wishing you much love, hugs and happy doggy dreams to take you away from this awful grief even just for a short time. 14 years of living his best life, because of the love you have for each other.
My heart to yours Nagi…I witness you! Thank you for sharing Dozer with us. So much love to you and your Angel <3
My heart aches for you, Nagi.
You are in my thoughts and prayers.
On a lighter note….
I have to admit that most of the time I went straight for Dozer’s page : )~
Then onto the recipe’s.
I will miss him.
Hugs for you.
SUCH BEAUTIFUL WORDS and thoughts to share. Know that many are mourning your loss and sending hugs. Dozer is irreplaceable. I know you will feel overwhelming sadness forever, but your will find a way to live your way around it. I made your brisket on the weekend and sobbed too for your beautiful boy. Hugs xxx
I just have to leave a note for Nagi. Just remember your lovely Dozer I am still crying after reading this. You will never forget him lovely girl.
Kind Regards Sandy Jackson
Dear Nagi
Don’t worry about the words you forgot to say to Dozer. He read your heart and soul which contain more than words could ever describe.
My heart breaks for you…your love for one another was so clear and beautiful. 🙏
Hi Nagi, I’m so deeply sorry for your loss. I always scroll all the way down to see his picture! They’re angels sent by God and one day, maybe we will be their Angel. May his beautiful soul rest in peace. Sending you lots of hugs. Will always remember Dozer!
Nagi, Thank you so much for sharing Dozer with us. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you lots of love, support and prayers. Take care of yourself. We are here with you.
Rest in peace Dear Dozer.
I will miss your beautiful friendly happy face each week.
Condolences Nagi.
💔❤️🩹❤️It will be hard but peace will come
“I loved you your whole life and I’ll miss you the rest of mine.”
“You will always be my favourite hello and hardest goodbye.”
— Cecelia Ahren