I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
I cried with you such an amazing storey of love, affection and joy…..in time I hope you get another puppy not too replace Dozer but to bring back joy and memories. Much love thank you for all the great recipes…….hugs from Canada
Dearest Nagi I am so sorry to hear of Dozer passing much love going your way and beautiful Dozer may you rest in peace and join all the animals who have crossed the rainbow bridge 🌈 ❤️💔🐾
Ohhh Nagi, my heart breaks for you. Hold you up in prayer, may you be surrounded in hugs and support for those around you. I understand the heart break, the numbness and hopelessness without your Dozer. Your heart breaks so much because of the greatest LOVE. Hugs x
Dearest Nagi, I am very saddened about the passing of your beautiful boy and your grief. Our furbabies are our world and worth every millisecond we spend together. You are an awesome mum to Dozer and Dozer was so very blessed to have you as his mum. You were both truly blessed. Loosing someone you love is beyond hard. When your heartache allows know that Dozer is always always with you, especially his eternal loyalty and love. I believe that all living things are created by a life giving force and when we pass, we return to where we were all created. Dozer is there waiting. Take care the best you can. You are held in prayers and courage.
I am so sorry. Our fur babies wiggle their way into our hearts when young, become family members as they grow, and leave us heartbroken when they leave too soon. I wish you peace as you remember the joy you shared with Dozer. Our hearts go out to you. Grieve in your own time. We will be here when you are ready.
so sorry for your loss Nagi
I have followed Dozer and you for many years and feel like you’re my friends. I never enjoyed one of your wonderful recipes without also enjoying Dozer’s adorable antics. Thank you for giving your followers these heartwarming glimpses into your life with this glorious boy. As a dog mama myself, I empathize with your sorrow. Sending hugs and love from Costa Rica. 🪷
I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved Dozer. How blessed Dozer was to have you as his mum. Sending big hugs to you♥️♥️
I saw this news today while sitting at work and sat the rest of the day hiding from my colleagues with tears streaming down my face thinking of you and Dozer. Saying I’m sorry feels so inadequate for the devastation that has changed your world forever. My heart breaks for you and for the days you must face, learning how to navigate a world without the other half of your heart and soul. But if you can take comfort in anything, just know that people are mourning your little boy from every corner of the globe. You gave Dozer to all of us to love and from far and wide hearts are broken, tears are falling and he is front and center in all our thoughts. It’s not every fur buddy that affects the world like that. And it only happened because during his time here you gave Dozer the world. He will always be sitting on our shelf ready to guide our next dinner.
So beautifully written
My heart goes out to you Nagi, I opened one of my favourite cookbooks yesterday to cook a meal and saw Dozer on many of the pages . A few tears shed there. He will not be forgotten. Thinking of you and sending love.There is nothing quite like a dog’s love.
Nagi I’m so sorry you have lost your amazing friend!!!
His memories will live on and give you the strength as Dozer did .
When I saw the title I knew I couldn’t read this post until my work day was done as I knew it would end me. I’m so sorry for your loss Nagi. It’s hard to imagine a dog who was more loved, lived better, or ate better. RIP Dozer. You’ll be missed worldwide. xx
Thank you for sharing beautiful Dozer with us over the years. You two obviously had (have) such a deep and loving bond and that gave me great pleasure to see.
I am so sorry for your loss of Dozer. Reading your post just brings it home how much love there was for your beautiful companion. I hope others read it and get reminded of how much our pups enrich our lives. Thank you for all that you do and for your authentic, beautiful soul.
Hi Nagi, Your recipes have inspired me for many years and always loved seeing your dozer posts and his cheeky begs for food. Dozer was so relatable to me, as our fur baby (Rosie) is always wanting to help me out in the kitchen. My heart breaks for you Nagi, but you must have some comfort in knowing you gave him the best life and your bond is unbreakable. RIP Dozer. x
Dear Nagi, I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved Dozer.I know exactly what you are going through right now. I lost my little Kobe last mounth after 16 years of life together, so I understand the overwhelming pain and the emptiness in the house. There are no words for that feeling. Stay strong. I’ll keep you and Dozer in my prayers.
If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
I would walk right up to heaven
And bring you back again
Dozer, will live forever in your heart Nagi..Try to remember the joy. Easy for me to say, I know, Have been through the same, too many times x
Vale Dozer
Dear, dear Dozer. He will always be with you.
Hugs from a Canadian friend xox