I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
My heart goes out to you and your loss of your lovely, sweet Dozer. He will be missed by all
So sorry Dozer has left you,remember always you gave him the best life
Recently we lost our 3 year old Aussie terrier Keeper to a brain tumour.
However he will always be with us ,our car has Keeper plates ,all the door stops are dogs with his name attached and photos all over
Kindest regards.
Mike &Jennifer
♥️😢 so sorry to hear that you have lost your beautiful boy Nagi.
So sorry Dozer has left you,remember always you gave him the best life
Recently we lost our 3 year old Aussie terrier Keeper to a brain tumour.
However he will always be with us ,our car has Keeper plates ,all the door stops are dogs with his name attached and photos all over
Kindest regards.
Mike &Jennifer
Sending so much love and strength, Nagi xxx
Sitting here in Central Texas and crying my eyes out. I so loved seeing Dozer and you in all your posts. Not gonna lie, i always scrolled down to the Dozer section first before looking at your recipe. Hugs to you, and thinking of you and Dozer today and always.. ♥
I too am weeping, reading your loving words and looking at Dozer’s handsome face.He was a very lucky boy to hae such a loving, caring, special companion to share his life with.
Your tears will fade at some point but the memories of how special your time together was never will.
More than 30 years after the passing of my beautiful St Bernard, Samantha, I still think about her and feel the hole in my heart she left behind.
Allow yourself the tears and memories. dozer will always be a part of your heart.
Its heartbreaking 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔
Feeling sorry for you Nagi, my dog is also my best friend my soulmate.
RIP dear Dozer 🫶🏻🐾
So very sorry to hear about
Dozer.
I am so sorry
I was 18 when I lost my first fur-baby. She was 17 and we’d been together for 15 years. I still remember the day my family picked her up as well as many other days significant to us. So many beautiful memories. And of course that last sad memory. I think I know pretty much how you’re feeling. Commiserations Nagi, there is nothing any of us can say to make this any easier for you. Eventually you’ll be able to look at your photos without bawling your eyes out. Until then be consoled knowing he loved you just as much as you loved him.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Lean into the grief which is the love you shared. Let people take care of you as you travel this journey.
I am so sorry Nagi. He loved you too, and you made a great life for him.
The death of a pet is one of the hardest to bear. They are our constant, loyal, loving companions and the loss is great. Sending lots of love and hugs from Canada.
Dear Nagi,
As I read your amazing tribute to Dozer, I was struck by all the love and loyalty he gave you without fail mirrored what you gave him also without fail. Thank you for sharing your love for each other with all of us.
lovingly yours,
Shelagh
I lost my dog a few months ago, and still feel guilty. He had a good life, but we want them to never get sick or old. You gave Dozer so much love.
Hugs💕🦋🌹
Losing any life is sad! I feel your devastation. I thank your Dozer for supporting you to be who you are. He enabled you to give to us. He was really something else! RIP!
I am so so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing him with us. Your love for him was obvious and you could tell he loved you back just as much! Praying for you during this rough time. Sending you hugs across the world. ❤️ 🐾
Oh my heart breaks for you Nagi 😢. Dogs give so much unconditional love and take a piece of us when they pass on. I am sure Dozer knew how much he was loved by you.