I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Hugs, just hugs
I have followed you and Dozer for many years now and was always envious of the loving bond that you shared. Dozer enriched your life in ways that no human could. Treasure those memories as you laugh in remembrance of his antics and weep for the loss of your dear friend.
❤️not sure what to say except that it must be very painful for you.
So much love. How terrible this is to go through. Sending my condolences to you Nagi at this incredibly difficult time
Terribly sorry for your loss. I’ve been there. Very difficult. The very best to you in this trying time.
My heart breaks for you Nagi. The older I get I realize that we are all just walking through this world, some walks are a lot longer than others. Your golden boy had the best and longest walk ever and it’s all thanks to you. ❤️
This is a heartbreaking and painful, yet absolutely beautiful post. So very very sorry for your loss…
There are no words, but sending healing vibes and strength. Thank you for the beautiful words to Dozer.
Oh how Dozer will be missed! We love Dozer and will miss you with him! Sending you lots of love, hugs, and prayers for healing. We love you and love you sharing your sweet love, Dozer with all of us! It was such a treat for all of us to see all the fun you two were up to! He’s in heaven with all of our beloved fur babies getting all the incredible love he so deserves for living such a wonderful life!
Bless you Nagi.
Big hugs, Nagi. Deepest sympathy for you from afar.
If love could have saved him…he would have lived forever.
So sorry Nagi.
Nagi, I am so sorry for your loss. Dozer was a wonderful dog and companion and I do hope that his memory can eventually bring you joy and peace. It is so hard to let them go.
I’m so so sorry, Nagi! I’m crying too, and remembering again my own family losses. It never goes away but it does get a little easier with enough time. Thinking of you with love.
Thank you for sharing Dozer.❤️🐾🐾
I wish you peace as you navigate the new you without your loving, Dozer.
I grieve with you at the loss of your fur-baby.
Hugs, from Los Angeles…..
My deepest condolences Nagi…my heart feels for you. 💔
Our pets are our family.
I’m crying for both you and Dozer.
He knew he was loved, as did you. No greater gift
Oh, Nagi! There are simply no words, only shared tears.
Praying for comfort and strength for you and your family. Always know that you have been the best Mum to your sweet boy.
Dearest Nagi,
My heart is with you. Your posts & photos of Dozer have made me smile through some of my most difficult days. I truly believe that Dozer will always be with you.