I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
My heart breaks for you, Nagi. Sending love and healing thoughts.
Nagi: Thank you for sharing your heart with us. We are so very sorry for your physical loss of Dozer. Thank you for giving your fur baby the best you had to give. Dozer is not suffering or in pain anymore. He would not want you suffering either.
We miss your sweet boy. May your followers provide some comfort to you in the coming days and weeks.
Sorry to hear about Dozer, I will miss him.
My deepest sympathy to you Nagi. Dozer was such a delight to read about and brought great joy to so many. We all love our furry companions. They give us unconditional love and so much joy. We will all miss your faithful companion. RIP Dozer.
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I am so sorry. May his memory be evergreen in your heart, and may that bring you peace, in time.
I am so very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved Dozer. We always know it’s coming but that never makes it any easier.
My condolences to you Nagi for your loss. There is nothing better than shared pure love. You are both privileged to have experienced it.❤️
thank you for sharing Dozer with people all over the world – sense of humor, likes, dislikes and for so openly sharing your love for what I see as a fierce and most lovely companion – hugs and big big love
Its so hard to type amidst the tears Nagi, but thank you for sharing Dozer with us. He was truly a beautiful companion, and I feel so deeply for your loss. Know that you and Dozer are in the hearts of all of us. My heart breaks for you.
I am so deeply sorry to hear about your beautiful boy. We have enjoyed the journey with you. Rest peacefully. Will miss you x
Dear Nagi,
My deepest condolences. Thank you for sharing Dozer with us. He is such a good boy. We will miss him too.
Rest in peace, Dozer. My condolences to you Ms. Nagi. I am at a loss for words. Sending you hugs.
I’m in tears. My most heartfelt condolences to you. Sending you much love and and big hug…
Thank you for sharing Dozer with us. I always loved seeing his part in every post and recipe. What a very special being <3
Nagi, I am so very sorry for your loss of Dozer. As a dog (and cat) lover myself, who has lived with and lost so many animals over the years, Losing my first greyhound, I was shocked that the world was still spinning and seemingly normal after so much love had left this world. I offer you much prayer, love and sympathy. Maia Bourque from Texas
Dear Nagi
I am so sorry to read of the loss of your darling Dozer
Golden retrievers are very very special
And it is clear from your posts and photos how devoted you were to him
It is 10.5 years since we lost our Harvey so I do empathise about how you are feeling. I still think of him even though we have another Goldie now – Fred
Fred is so different from Harvey but still as lovable
Thinking of you as you grieve 🐾
Ps
Love your recipes – I have 2 of your books
I am so very sorry for your loss. Dozer was a wonderful part of everyday life. I am sorry he is so missed. 🙁 God bless you and I hope you can heal. He is missed and has been a blessing.
Sorry for your loss. I know you are going through a hard time, but smile, close your eyes and know you will see him in heaven. I will pray for your pain.
Nagi, my heart weeps with you. These sweet animals steal our hearts and bring is so much joy. Prayers for your comfort and healing. ❤️🙏❤️
Oh Nagi, When I saw the title of your blog today, my heart hurt so badly. I can’t find the words to console you, because there aren’t any. Please know I will keep Dozer in my heart, and you in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your amazing fur baby with us. Truely a wonderful gift to all your followers. Much Love & Light, Sharon
Nagi, I am so very sorry. There are no words to help. Just know that we are here thinking of you. Thank you for sharing Dozer with us and thank you for sharing your grief. We will miss him too. What a wonderful love you two shared.